Hello, Are You Still There?
I’ve gotten this message and similar ones (Are you okay? Where you at? Where you been?) consistently over the last year. I feel lucky that people looked forward to seeing me pop up in their inbox and having more regular blog posts, and also bad because I feel like I fell off. Yea, you read that right, I FELL OFF.
The truth is: Life Happens. And despite my superwoman tendencies and desire to be invincible, the truth is I’m human. Burnout happens, life happens, injury happens, stress happens, trauma happens…and if, and after, you survive all of that then recovery has to happen.
During these times, for some, nothing happens. They cease to do anything. Me? I show up for those I’m committed to, maintain the essential commitments and responsibilities, and then everything else kinda falls by the wayside.
So many projects and dreams just put on hold and frozen in time.
The FlexyFit blog was one of those things sadly, along with my first real book, new ebooks and workbooks, master classes, another self-care social, a handful of new trainings, my personal pole/aerial practice, desire to become a USPSF judge, and more. So much of what I wanted to do and had planned to do just stayed in the orbit of my brain because I zombied out on myself, on life, on my goals, on my voice.
And despite my regular preaching of self-care and boundaries to others, I failed myself. I failed to fully and regularly practice what I preached and this took a serious toll on the quality of my life.
Then Something Happened and I Woke Up
Something happened though, I’m not really even sure what or when, but something happened one day where I just snapped out of it. I did that “Self Pep Talk”. Self: It’s time to get your body, your mind and your shit together. You know the equation to INSANITY way too well and you don’t even like math!
While it hasn’t been overnight and it certainly hasn’t been easy, I’ve slowly been finding my way back to ME. I’ve spent the last year reestablishing boundaries, getting to know myself again, carving out me time, protecting my energy, using my voice loudly and proudly, removing problematic clients and people from my life, eliminating unnecessary negativity and building a better environment that I can thrive and be happy in.
A big part of me coming back to me, is me coming back to you. Which is why you’re reading this now. As I return to my path, my mission and my vision, I do so slowly and methodically. I’m not coming back with any promises of anything other than doing the best that I can, when I can. And trying to be a better example to you by being better to myself.
If you can relate to any of this. If my struggles speak to you, drop me a note below or shoot me an email. Let’s connect, share and support each other. You are to alone.
Next post we’ll talk about one of the things that’s helped me on this new self- journey which is setting realistic expectations and the new way that I set (and achieve) goals.