Beautiful Defeat

Last night I was disappointed to find out that I did not make it to MTPS this year…talk about being bummed. Ironically there were two other ladies with the same last name as me…so I was momentarily excited and then quickly disappointed: TWICE. But it was definitely a bitter-sweet moment. Even though I didn’t make the cut, it was beautiful to see just how much the Texas pole community has grown. There is just so much talent and support, and I am super proud for everyone!

I spent the better part of my day dissecting my tryout video over and over, asking myself What could I have done better or different? Were my toes pointed enough? Did I hold that trick long enough? Should have done another “one last recording”? I guess at this point those are just open-ended questions. I guess I had put so much thought and focus on my hopes of making it, that I never really thought about what would happen (or how I would feel) if I didn’t make it.

So now as I think about where to go from here, I am reminded of what actually got me to this point: FITNESS. What started me on this journey of wanting to be a more serious pole competitor was my desire to be more more healthy and more fit. And what has helped me on my fitness journey is my desire to become a better pole dancer.

When I first started losing weight, I was amazed at how much more I could do on the pole and how much better I was at holding and executing tricks. Since my 2011 MTPS tryout I have successfully dropped over 30 pounds. I’m aiming to drop 20 more, so now I have an opportunity to really focus and put forth the necessary effort to achieve that goal.

Looking back, I can’t help but to say that I’m proud of myself for what I have accomplished, and I’m super thankful to have such a wonder trainer and friends that have encouraged and motivated me along the way.

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