Last night I was disappointed to find out that I did not make it to MTPS this year…talk about being bummed. Ironically there were two other ladies with the same last name as me…so I was momentarily excited and then quickly disappointed: TWICE. But it was definitely a bitter-sweet moment. Even though I didn’t make the cut, it was beautiful to see just how much the Texas pole community has grown. There is just so much talent and support, and I am super proud for everyone!
I spent the better part of my day dissecting my tryout video over and over, asking myself What could I have done better or different? Were my toes pointed enough? Did I hold that trick long enough? Should have done another “one last recording”? I guess at this point those are just open-ended questions. I guess I had put so much thought and focus on my hopes of making it, that I never really thought about what would happen (or how I would feel) if I didn’t make it.
So now as I think about where to go from here, I am reminded of what actually got me to this point: FITNESS. What started me on this journey of wanting to be a more serious pole competitor was my desire to be more more healthy and more fit. And what has helped me on my fitness journey is my desire to become a better pole dancer.
When I first started losing weight, I was amazed at how much more I could do on the pole and how much better I was at holding and executing tricks. Since my 2011 MTPS tryout I have successfully dropped over 30 pounds. I’m aiming to drop 20 more, so now I have an opportunity to really focus and put forth the necessary effort to achieve that goal.
Looking back, I can’t help but to say that I’m proud of myself for what I have accomplished, and I’m super thankful to have such a wonder trainer and friends that have encouraged and motivated me along the way.
August 4, 2012 @ 5:17 AM
leaps and bounds girl!!! leaps and bounds!!! Your growth is limitless!!! You done good 😉
August 7, 2012 @ 10:10 PM
Ashley I am sorry you didn’t win because I know from the looks of the video you worked hard. iN MY OPINION I think you did an awesome job! Keep up the good work, God will see you thru anything you try to do, and this may have not been your season. Keep trying dont give up and keep pressing, better luck next year! Awesome, Awesome, Awesome! Oh and girl I am getting married so I may need some instruction lol!